The last 2 years have been tough. Between finding myself as a person again (which I am still working on) to balancing life as we know it with work and family, we are welcoming another baby BOY into the world on March 7th (my due date).
I've been pushed by friends and Clark to start the blog back up. While I don't have much time these days, I really didn't want too. Clark said it was "only fair to the second baby" for me to continue to write about my experience with my second pregnancy. So, here we are, 21 weeks into this pregnancy (oops!) and starting up the blog again!
I totally understand the 1st child v. 2nd child. The excitement from the 1st child really is overwhelming and you want to share it with the world. The 2nd child, I just want to be a recluse and not post anything or do anything for that matter since most of my time is either working or chasing around Anson! It is exhausting and there isn't much time in the day to sit down and write.
I am officially 1/2 of the way done with this pregnancy and boy has it flown by and I have had a hell of the first trimester and glad that the second trimester is easier on me. Around Week 8, everything I would eat, I would vomit. There was a lot of massive headaches and vomiting. I can only imagine the amount of cavities I will be getting during this pregnancy! I've had three really bad symptoms I didn't have with Anson:
1. Vomitting
2. Severe Headaches
3. Pure Exhaustion
A little backstory to our Baby #2!
I had severe complications, as most of you can remember, and was told it would be pretty impossible for us to have another baby. I had come to terms with the fact that we'd have an only child. In return, I had switched to a new OBGYN and he was trying to find the root of all of my symptoms and problems after having Anson. I had excess bleeding, excess scar tissue and a LOT of pain all the time. He had sent me to an HSG test to see if there were any cysts, polyps, blockage, etc. and threw me back on Clomid (which was unsuccessful before) to see if I had severe inflammation during my ovulation and to see if there was any other indication of what could be wrong. Well, after doing those two tests, we are now pregnant! Go figure!
I hate to say it, but I trusted my old OB completely and time and time again, she had let me down. My current OB said it is a 1 out of 1 million case where someone gets 4 infections and massive blood clotting after a c-section. So, the one person I trusted who was supposed to deliver my child safely and continue to care for me, almost killed me and continued to tell me false things about being infertile, etc. It has really made me question myself and the trust I have in all doctors. My OB now is fabulous, I trust him and he is very blunt with me. But, I will also be learning and researching for my own good. I don't want to be left in the dark this time around.
BUT, here's the kicker, we decided to go the midwife route. My current OB told me that the only way I could VBAC is that if he were there the whole time with me and his time is more important than the payout in the end. Well, the money isn't an issue. I want a VBAC and I am going to have a VBAC! He even mentioned that midwives can do it without a problem but he is bound by the laws of California. So, we are going with PUSH Midwifery and Robyn Pool is my midwife! We are so excited for this journey and Clark is 100% on board! Below are some pictures (that don't do it justice) It is a gorgeous birthing suite! You can find her information on http://www.pushmidwifery.com/
